Truths about me..

~I hate myself for not being able to hold in how i feel about ppl. If I love you I say it. I hold it in for as long as I can and then I just let it out. I wanna fake it like other ppl do.

~The last girl i said I love you to may very well be the last. The words don't mean anything to me now..don't think i'll HONESTLY feel this way about anyone else.

~I can hardly listen to a song or watch a movie about love without crying. Because i'm thinkin about one person when stuff comes up like a sickness.

~I forced myself to stop crying..worked for a little over a month.

~I thought the last girl I talked to was the one for me. Like really I wanted to have her babies, do the name change, put a diamond on her finger(yep stupid me). Didn't know you could be wrong about that but i guess she wasn't feelin it.

~I hate when ppl tell me they love me and don't spell it out. Ex. I luv u, I love u...if you love me you can spell it out. (I'll take I love yu..and MAYBE 143, ily..idk why these are okay)

~I still have soo many unanswered questions and stuff I want to say but I won't. You get tired of talkin and tryin to make ppl talk back.

~5% of me still believes in fairy tale endings in real life I mean.

~I wish I could make my feelings go away. Or have a rewind button.

~Despite what ppl think i'm satisfied with ONE girl. I like attn from the one person that means the most to me.

~I don't give up ppl i love easily but sometimes I do, I don't like to give up on stuff I think is real. Especially if i'm the only one willing to work on things.

~I don't think ppl ever wanna work to for anything anymore. They just run instead of dealing with issues and workin them out.

~Ppl call me pretty all the time..it doesn't really mean much to me unless someone I have feelings for says it.

~I'm seriously lookin into gettin a mail order bride. Don't think i'm goin to get married for love anymore. I don't think thats an emotion i'm capable of anymore.

~Everytime a situation goes south with a girl I reevaluate what I did. {ex. did everything for this last girl..took care of her when she was sick, came everytime she called, did the flowers thing, whatever she needed or wanted I did..NEXT GIRL.....THAT SHYT WILL NOT HAPPEN. NOT AT ALL.}

~I'd rather read than go to a club. Dead ass.

~I'm happiest when i'm with my friends..they know exactly what to do and say..I laugh ALL DAY when i'm with them.

~I don't know how to watch my mouth. I say whatever to anyone...and if I spare your feelings it must mean I care about you and I don't wanna hurt your feelings.